I have been thinking a lot lately. My relationship with my husband isn't all that well. I have been neglecting my darling baby because of exam and stuff. And i really studied very hard this few weeks as i really have neglected my studies a lot on MCs and was very depress the past weeks. I am now getting on my feet to pull myself through hoping that i will get back to 'game' and score really well for my semester exam as my CA isn't very good. And i hope, during the holidays, i can spent quality time with my son nurturing and cultivating him good habits and manners and teach him lots of stuff.

I have learn through IBM that enzyme loses it ability to function after the optimum temperature which usually is 45 degree Celsius. Meaning the food, cooked food that we eat, literally has no enzymes able to function as most of the enzymes have been denatured with the high temperature that the food was cooked. So.. we should eat more RAW food that isn't cook at high temperature. I have been wondering why most smart people is ignorant when it comes to their own health.. Like they know that hot food with plastic containers will leach those toxic into the food, but they still buys it. They know that eating food that contains pesticides and toxic will in future harm their body because of carcinogens. But we human still eats it... I can't be a 100% raw food eater, because my family doesn't believe in it. In fact none of them believe in it... Humans are really cruel and cruel in nature. Because of Mass production to meet the need of ourselves, we are using inhumane manner in raising livestock, giving them growth hormones, antibodies so that we can have the biggest portion of meat at a really cheap price and short time. Look at our earth now, it is dying.

I hasn't been eating Meat now. Wondering i can really be a vegetarian? And i have 3.3kg of excess fats to lose....

And also, i am really poor now, my husband quit his job and went to malaysia. (holiday)
Seriously... So irresponsible of him.

I need to be stronger, do well my exams get a diploma, and work.

Wish me the best.

Smoking..

Last time i used to smoke when i was 15-16. I was working at a restaurant, and there, my colleagues smoke too. I was very stress at that time, and i always thought that smoking would relieve the stress.People look so relax when they smoke... And i tried it, and i told myself that i'm going to smoke. I went and bought a pack of cigarette at a grocery store. I sat at the staircase and lit the cigarette, and i took my very first puff, then, i became very dizzy. I couldn't find my balance. However, I got use to the 'kick' that the cigarettes was giving me. And I became addicted. Although i thought to myself that quiting them will be easy. I was wrong...

I smoke for about 1 year +. Sometimes, i smoke 1 pack throughout the night playing computer games. And I also quarreled with my mum because she accidentally threw a full pack of cigarettes into the garbage bin. I was furious and demanded a new pack. When i was sad, I just kept smoking and smoking. When i don't have money to buy cigarettes I will steal from my parents. Yes, i know that i was very bad that time too.

That time... I didn't know i was pregnant, and i smoke through the first 3 months of my pregnancy. That very day that i found myself pregnant. I was very scared and devastated. I goggled the internet for the health effects of smoking during pregnancy. There I saw all those effects.The effects of smoking during pregnancy were Preterm delivery, Stillbirth, Low birth weight, Sudden infant death syndrome. I was so afraid. And i also drank hard liquor in the first 3 months of my pregnancy ... Since then, i will always think about how my baby will turn out when i give birth.. And i always cried thinking of that... I felt very sad on how i was harming my unborn.


I decided. I stopped smoking, stopped drinking. And i hated smoking. I would ask my husband to walk away from me if he's smoking or he just smoke. I didn't want him to harm my baby.

Thank goodness when Zedian was born, he was alright. He was healthy. I thank God that i didn't harm him with all those toxic things that i was giving him.

I read through all those health effects of cigarettes, and i found myself being an absolute fool for feeding the toxic to my body. I was literally killing myself for the long run, and I almost killed my son.

Smoking harms nearly every organ of the body. Smoking causes many diseases and reduces the health of smokers in general.

And i also feel rather a fool for putting antioxidant creams on my skin, where on the other hand, i was exposing free radicals on my skin, killing my skin cells.

Cigarattes have many chemical carcinogens in them. And, there are over 19 carcinogens found in them.

Everyone knows that smoking causes cancer, but some smokers just don't care, because they don't see the effects immediately.

The truth is, Lung cancer, can take up to 20 years to manifest themselves.

Smoking causes abdominal aortic aneurysm, acute myeloid leukemia, cataract, cervical cancer, kidney cancer, pancreatic cancer, pneumonia, periodontitis, stomach cancer and the list still goes on!

Once you stop smoking, you can reduce all the risk of having these diseases, and what's more, improving your health.

I have seen primary school kids smoking and this is very sad. Very sad that parents don't teach them well. The parents smoke too, and they modeled this role of the parents as they think it's alright to smoke.

My husband hasn't quit too, and i'm awfully disappointed. I don't know what will it take for him to stop smoking..

I am really lucky that Zedian is a healthy baby... Well, there are some other mummies that isn't as fortunate as me.. I feel very sad for them.

If you're smoking, stop feeding yourself toxic, stop killing yourself in the long run. You have got families that are dependent on you. Stay healthy and protect your family!

God.. Help me to concentrate, give me endurance, guide me back to the right path.
Had a long break, need to focus now, lots of quiz and term test coming.

http://storyofstuff.org/cosmetics/
Watch this.. Don't buy products that consist of a whole list of ingredients that you don't understand. Although we don't eat the product, but our skin will let this harmful products penetrate into our body. All these toxic will accumulate in our body, and one fine day it will explode.. That's when you know it's too late to turn back.

Why do you want to put toxic on to your body? The world needs help, stop harming it. Our evil human works can be seen now.. (Flood, global warming, increasing temperature)
We need to do something now!!

My brother is moving out to his new house soon. And Zedian will be getting his room!
I really want to buy this bed... It so beautiful and cozy... And it cost $1423. The bed only...


When he grows old... The bed be transform to this, and he can even add a slide.

His castle..

I really hope that Zedian can be a girl... Because this is so beautiful!


How i wish i have this kind of bed when i was young.. :(

Zedian would be coming 22 months soon. He's been attending his new school for coming 2 months. He no longer cries when he's going sch, and he just happily wave goodbye to us and went to his class. I am so proud of him. When i went to fetch him from school, he would carry his own bag and wave goodbye to all of his friends and teachers and run towards me. His teacher said he has been speaking a lot recently which is good. Although sometimes it isn't very clear, i know that with a little bit of corrections to his speech, in a few months he languages will improve.

I had started bringing Zedian to church, I want him to know God at a younger age, so that he will learn to appreciate and love God. It's been very long since i last went to church, I will be trying to commit my time to go there now.

I have also been eating a lot of junk food recently, and in a few days, it will be my brother wedding. I to attend ROM on wednesday, and will be eating restaurant food, Thursday i have a free buffet to go, Sat noon is my bro afternoon ceremony where he will be going to pick the bride back to the house, and we have a small buffet, then during evening it is his wedding ceremony and we would be eating good food again.. Oh my.. When i am trying to lose weight now, i have to eat so much... Yes i'm trying to lose all those weight that i gain during my pregnancy.

I promise Zedian i would bring him to swim this week, I hope it's happening soon!

Hey everyone. Recently i came across this very interesting article. Macdonald Fries does not Decompose!

Look at this video. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=htnvzLU1I1o

Think of it everytime you eat Fast food, or food with preservatives. Food preservatives are so nasty that microorganisms can't decompose them for months, or YEARS. If they can't decompose, chances are, they are going to be stored in your body for long long time.

Fungi, Mould, can't even eat them, how can we eat them?

preservative is a natural or synthetic substance or chemical that is added to products such as foods.

When these chemicals enters our body, our natural defenses do not know how to react and that results in the body either absorbing these foreign substances or causing illness and breakdown of the organs. Studies have shown that a number of diseases that are occurring in humans such as Chronic fatigue syndrome, Irritable Bowel Syndrome and acid stomach are because of the chemical food intake.

Avoid artificial food additives, preservatives, coloring. Anything that is artificial. Read your labels. You don't want your body to store all this toxic chemicals inside and obstructing your body to absorb nutrients. Buy Organic, support sustainable farms!

Have you watch Food INC the movie? If not watch now! Know what kind of food are you eating, where do they come from, how are they process, how is the animal being treated, and ask yourself if it is safe to eat.

Limit yourself to take meat only once in awhile, we are killing far too much animals!

After a long battle with bacteria. Zedian is sicked again. It's very sad that he will fall sick almost once a month. I really hope that i can choose not to sent him to childcare, then again, i have to think of the future. To provide him with a better standards of living the wise choice will be to complete my studies and find a job that i like.

Well, it's very sad that this Chinese new year, in order for some business to make money, they actually pack rou gan (barbecue pork) in to bite size packaging in plastic. Imagine how many waste are there. Moreover, they cannot be recycle. To attract customers with attractive package, they should think of our Earth first. More waste?Hello, more CO2! If they use plastic they should use recycle-able plastic... I don't understand..

I can't wait to meet the Zedian's soon to be new principal. I actually had a very good impression of her, she actually shared common viewpoints with me too. She is actually the first person after visiting so many centres that actually care a lot of the children in the school. And, she even offered free trials for Zedian to get use to school before i actually enrolled him in. Well basically Zedian is really wasting his time now in infant care, he only can learn little things.

Yesterday i was very upset with his behavior, he threw some tantrums and refuse to behave. The first thing i think of is infant care. I cannot think of anything else that make him behave like this. I know i need a lot of patience and time to teach him properly, and sadly, i really do not have the luxury of time.

This coming semester exams will be the worst days of my life. During the study break, i only have 2 days to study. Monday-Wednesday, no body can help me look after Zedian because is Holiday, childcare is close. And this coming weekend my mum is working... I don't know what to do.. I should do well. I know but i don't know how to.

Recently i bought a packet of organic biscuit for Zedian. It's packaging says Eco-planet. And the biscuit have very interesting shapes. Windmill, Solar sun, eco-car and the earth. Zedian loves the Car-shape biscuit. He really enjoyed playing with the biscuit and eating them as well.

I miss Barbara bakery's cookie.. they are really very nice. Not sure why vitakids hasn't been stocking on them.

I am going to buy Zedian a bike soon! It's call the Micro-G bike plus. It's from swiss and it is very cute. It is a bike without pedals and have only 2 wheels.
It looks like this http://microscooters.co.jp/en/products/g-bike

I have to study hard.... TML!